At exactly a year ago, this moment, I have just landed in Perth Airport.
The contact lens in my eyes are not exactly making me comfortable after 5 hours of flight. I could have slept through it, but the turbulence is scaring me, but what scares me even more is what will happen after I landed.
I am shaking.
I couldn’t say this is the best choice in my life, flying across the ocean alone, but, this is the only choice I have, and i have to do it.
It all ended, too soon, too sudden, too unexplained.
But reality hits me, the moment I arrived, she kept a distance from me.
I know, I am not expecting a warm welcome, a kiss, or even a hug, but it still stings me, considering what we had between us, maybe a simple hi?
I had so much going in my head, how to convince her, how to win her back, how much I am willing to sacrifice and how much I love her. But the moment she walked away from me, I gave up, I know, no matter what I do, its not going to change the fact she is not accepting me in her life anymore.
The promises, that kept me going on for that two month, shattered.
Those future that I had hoped for; buying lots of Ben 10 toys for the youngest sister, being a humorous big brother to the two smart sisters; being; appreciating her mum’s assam laksa; occasionally unwilling to alight from the bus just to spent more time together.
Even though all these haven’t happened, I felt as if I lost it all.
She’s the first woman who said she loved me, she mumbled it, but I heard it clearly.
I loved her, I still do and I always will.
Even in the future I might have met someone else, she still hold a special place in my heart.
I really appreciated that you appeared in my life.
and the sentence I seldom says but always in my heart.
I love you. with all of my heart.